The wind of change is blowing

We're like this only. They always say it here in India, It's maybe on the part of our culture to just accept our "fate' or a pure sign of our philosophical resignation by just saying "we're like this only". But deep inside is a scream that no! we're not like this only(for christsake!). Talking about myself, i failed to anticipate the long term needs to change. Always my plans will be on the table and on a drafting stage for years because I talk too much, unwilling to go to the starting line and face the most difficult yet crucial part, the start. Taking the initiative to start. I became delusionary, spending hours a day in a fantasy worlds escaping the painful realities of life which is a part of the problem.rantings about how unjust the world is but fail to see myself as a part of it.
"Leaving a lifeI have no right to leave,to look life in the face and to know for what it is"I was an angry man always, but I begun to understand my anger and transform it. I begun to appreciate the beautiful things in life and begun to understand that I deserve more and that I can change my concept of living. I understand what I really need and work for it. I always feel before that I am suffering from acute feeling of time poverty, like being busy and fatigue is a badge of honor to please somebody, the more stress, the more feeling that I did a good work (for others) and started to forget my life. Now I want change and to change, I need an Overwhelming Force to do this.

Lost and Found

Wow, what a break.. I almost lost my username and password, It's been a while, months since my last blog. I went to Africa..(just my wish). Life became so routine, trying to do something different but not so successful so far. It's so astonishing how things became so normal when people are complaining how the world became so wronged. Instead of complaining about it, i just went outside and do something about it.I'm just living the day like any other day, watching the lion eat the gazelle (in tv), and trying to reach out for opportunities. "If you can't beat them dont join them "attitude. I'm talking about my work. It will be my 10th anniversay next month(to make it more romantic even if it's not!) and I hope before that day comes, I will be out of it.


you will never be happy
if you continue to search
for what happiness consists of.
you will never live if
you are looking for the meaning
of life
--- Albert Camus